1.) I got up at 7:30 AM this morning and went to the gym which was great. It was hard at first, I am not a morning person IN ANY WAY! Seriously I could sleep for twelve hours easy if there were no reason to get up. I'm also a night owl. I love the night hours, they suit me, I get tons done work wise. I always start this blog after the sun has gone down. But this morning I drug myself out of bed, drank a cup of yerba matte and headed out to the gym. I love the gym in the morning. There's less people there, I don't feel rushed, and I walk out feeling like I have the whole day ahead of me. I love that feeling, that whole anything could happen feeling. I did a full hour of cardio and if I could keep that up I know it could be life changing for me.
2.) I forgot my snacks today. boo. But one of the wonderful cooks with red rubber shoes and checkered pants at my work made a lot of adjustments to my salad to help it fit with in my diet.
"Um, what kind of substitution can I make to the Gouda Salad."
"What are you taking off?"
"The gouda."
"Oh, well, we can do a different kind of cheese."
"No cheese."
"Okay, how about fish."
"No fish."
"Okay. What can you eat?"
"What do you mean what can I eat? Loads of stuff, just not cooked stuff."
"Nothing cooked?"
"Yeah, so long as it's not cooked I can have it."
long pause. blank stare.
"Okay, I'm guessing the dressing isn't gonna work either."
I love these kinds of conversations. The moment where people's minds kinds click around what I am telling them is a some what entertaining for me. You'd think out here in California it'd be a little more normal, but really I guess it's still not the norm. But I guess it's better than being a total freak out in Texas. The cooks at my restaurant are really wonderful though. They are always willing and already have a plan for our Vegetarian and Vegan guest and they are always open to when I bring food in for them to try.
At any rate things are going well.
Tonight for dinner is Spaghetti. I know it seems like I make a lot of labour intensive stuff but really I don't spend that much time in the kitchen, I tend to bounce in and out of the kitchen between tasks. Really I bounce around the whole house changing my task every so often. Okay. Spaghetti. Go.
Spaghetti Marinara
Okay this one is a little weird but I had a lot of Pizza Chip paste left over so I decided to see how it would turn out in Marinara Sauce and it's pretty great.
Marinara Sauce
1 Large Tomato or 3 Small Tomato chopped
1 1/2 of the Pizza Chip paste
Handful of Fresh Basil Leaves
1/2 a Lemon juiced
1/2 sun dried tomatoes (soaked until soft)
2 tsp Agave Nectar
1/4 a Small Onion
Salt to Taste
The secret to making this sauce is blending order. Put the fresh tomatoes in the food processor first and blend until completely pulverized. Next add the Pizza Chip paste (by paste I mean that it has not been made into chips yet in the dehydrator) and blend again. Next add the sun dried tomatoes and blend and then add the rest of the ingredients and blend. I taste as I go so that I can adjust the flavor as I blend. Sometimes you need a little more sweetness and sometimes you gotta add some more oregano because the pizza chip better wasn't strong enough that batch. But I like the pizza chip batter as a base, the sunflower seeds, flax and sesame seeds really make the sauce hearty and filling (perfect when you are making grub for hungry boys). I also put the sauce in a shallow dish and put it in the dehydrator for a few minutes to get it a little warm when it's cold out side.
Noodles
1-2 Zucchini
You can remove the skin of the zucchini if you want to but I always leave it on cause there is so much good stuff in that emerald coat. Using a spiral cutter or a mandolin cut the zucchini on the smallest setting into angle hair paste size strips. Pile on a plate and cover is sauce.
On the emotional side of the day, I feel unproductive. I haven't made a single to do list this week( I am a to-do lister by nature) and I feel fussy. Like I am not accomplishing anything. I get into my mind that I want to do all these things and then *poof* there went the day. What the hell is that, aside from an evil time fairy. I know the sun going down a 5 PM is really messing with me. I love the winter but this shortened day stuff does not help a busy bee like me. I feel like I have this pent up snake twisted inside my chest where my heart should be when I look at the clock and do the mental count down to bedtime. I wonder if this feeling has more to do with my whole life and feeling like I am not doing enough. "what else could I be doing, am I missing something, is there some crucial step I'm not taking" is the mental ticker tape that reels through my brain every night. Is this normal... most likely. Something tells me that this might just be the back lash of the last year where just surviving was my goal and my dreams kind of had to take a back burner. I wonder how many other people who are out there trying to just survive during this current economic roller coaster and have had to ignore their life long dreams. Life long dream. Damn, I've never really thought about those words before, I mean literally those words. For your whole life, you have had one dream and your still waiting and working for that dream... it's kind of heartbreaking when you think about it. Well better to have a dream because I have a feeling even more people spend their whole lives with out even a dream or a real purpose to life, they may not even realize that they can. So I am lucky then. I survived the last year and I have a purpose, I have a life long dream.
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